November 10, 2017
I just realized something... I need to start with baby steps and work my way up to going to the gym.
Here is my commitment:
Every day I will take out the trash or get the mail.
I know this doesn't sound like a big deal but believe me when I say... IT IS A BIG DEAL.
MY WISH
I need to get me a wardrobe so I can go out in public.
The clothes I have are so uncomfortable... I stay in my pajamas all day.
I need to be able to get dressed in the morning like normal people do.
PLAN
I will work on my wardrobe and in the meantime it gets dark by 5:00 so I will get my mail or empty my trash at night... BABY STEPS!
November 9, 2017
UPDATE
Big disappointment/ setback with my weight loss journey. My insurance will pay for aquatic therapy (exercising in a pool) and transportation to and from but my doctor won't request the authorization until I have been cleared by three other specialists. This is easily a 6 month delay before I can begin exercising without pain.
PLAN
(1) I am going to look into paying out-of-pocket for a gym membership.
(2) I need to see if I can get my caregiver's hours increased so she can drive me to and from the gym.
(3) I will take advantage of the gym's free three day passes to test if I am physically and emotionally able to handle the additional stress of exercising.
(4) ALSO... I will ask Santa to cover the $100 cost to enroll in the gym! I can't think of a better Christmas present!!
ACTION(s) TAKEN
(1) I am weaning myself off of the anxiety medication I have been taking every day for seven years.
(2) I am sitting up in a chair instead of lounging on the couch each day for as long as my body can handle sitting up.
(3) When I sit in the chair I get a great deal of sunshine so I can quit my vitamin D supplement and obtain it naturally via the sun.
November 1, 2017
I have added salads, fruits and V-8 juice to my diet and reduced greatly my intake of sodas, ice cream, cookies, pudding, chips and after two complete months have GAINED weight. I now weigh 371.8 pounds.
GOOD NEWS
I have withdrawn COMPLETELY from my sleep medication!
I have replaced my prescription anxiety medication with one Stresstab tablet from Wal-Mart!
I have a new doctor that is three blocks from where I live, he has his own pharmacy, mammogram clinic, lab for blood tests, and I can get an appointment in days instead of three months!!!
PLAN
Get authorization from doctor for aquatic therapy for weight loss.
My insurance will cover the cost.
My insurance will provide transportation to and from the aquatic center.
I am going to make my aquatic therapy my ONLY focus. I have to push through the pain of going to... getting dressed... and returning home. Once I am in the pool, I am in heaven!
When I ate only vegetables and fruit, I lost 8 pound, and I had no mucus. I need to stay on this eating path... I WANT TO STAY ON THIS EATING PATH.
GOD, please help me to overcome the pain and temptation and cling to the healthier, happier me that can be.
AMEN
Thursday, November 9, 2017
Thursday, November 2, 2017
Weight Loss Journey - October 2017
October 28, 2017
UPDATE
The good thing about depression is it is a definite red flag that something has to change.
After prayer, a willingness to change and a great deal of soul searching I have come to this conclusion... I have spent over forty years trying to uncover the miracle needed to cure my Circadian Sleep Disorder. I have spent forty years following advice/treatment for my failing health from professionals who have no idea what they are talking about.
SOLUTION
Create my own treatment plan.
PLAN
(1) Sleep when I can
(1a) Accept that circadian is with me for the duration of my life and deal with it as best I can.
(2) Withdraw from the medications that don't work for me... (a) sleep medication (b) anxiety medication.
(3) Expand my world... (a) get out of my head... instead of looking for a cure use that time to read how people overcame obstacles in their lives (b) embrace the people in my life (c) join the monthly activities at my apartment complex (d) commit to exercising weekly in the pool.
(4) Focus on getting back my life... (a) I want to DANCE again... I REALLY miss that (2) The weight loss will happen!
October 10, 2017
Weight Lost: 4 pounds
This is going to be an incredibly LONG weight loss journey.
It has taken me 1 month and 10 days to lose 4 pounds... I am SO DEPRESSED.
Not only the scale results but I am for the first time facing the reality that I AM NOT GOING TO GET BETTER.
The biggest blow came when I saw my daughter sharing an extremely physically active day with her dad and his wife. They all looked so healthy and happy.
Within the same week my sister leaves on a 10-day vacation.
I have NEVER felt so alone and forgotten.
There is a medication made specifically for non-24 hour circadian sleep disorder that my insurance will cover (costs over a $1,000 for 30-day supply without insurance). I CANNOT find a doctor who is familiar with Circadian Sleep Disorder or the medication so the WILL NOT write me a prescription... so this is my life.
UPDATE
The good thing about depression is it is a definite red flag that something has to change.
After prayer, a willingness to change and a great deal of soul searching I have come to this conclusion... I have spent over forty years trying to uncover the miracle needed to cure my Circadian Sleep Disorder. I have spent forty years following advice/treatment for my failing health from professionals who have no idea what they are talking about.
SOLUTION
Create my own treatment plan.
PLAN
(1) Sleep when I can
(1a) Accept that circadian is with me for the duration of my life and deal with it as best I can.
(2) Withdraw from the medications that don't work for me... (a) sleep medication (b) anxiety medication.
(3) Expand my world... (a) get out of my head... instead of looking for a cure use that time to read how people overcame obstacles in their lives (b) embrace the people in my life (c) join the monthly activities at my apartment complex (d) commit to exercising weekly in the pool.
(4) Focus on getting back my life... (a) I want to DANCE again... I REALLY miss that (2) The weight loss will happen!
October 10, 2017
Weight Lost: 4 pounds
This is going to be an incredibly LONG weight loss journey.
It has taken me 1 month and 10 days to lose 4 pounds... I am SO DEPRESSED.
Not only the scale results but I am for the first time facing the reality that I AM NOT GOING TO GET BETTER.
The biggest blow came when I saw my daughter sharing an extremely physically active day with her dad and his wife. They all looked so healthy and happy.
Within the same week my sister leaves on a 10-day vacation.
I have NEVER felt so alone and forgotten.
There is a medication made specifically for non-24 hour circadian sleep disorder that my insurance will cover (costs over a $1,000 for 30-day supply without insurance). I CANNOT find a doctor who is familiar with Circadian Sleep Disorder or the medication so the WILL NOT write me a prescription... so this is my life.
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